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What, it’s ’08?

It’s mid January and only now have I got sense of the movement of time. How days vanish into years into the vestiges of collective memory. When you’ve wronged people, you’ll drown yourself in a stagnant, stinking pool of guilt and self-doubt. That’s where I was. Like driftwood albeit not really drifting but becoming flotsam amongst painful memories that just floats around me and won’t even budge an inch regardless of how hard I try to push them away.

The fact of the matter is, they won’t go away. They’ll haunt me and they’ll remind me of how I can be a complete and utter fool sometimes. Okay, most of the time. And I’m beginning to accept that and I’m prepared to let it help me become a better person, worthy of trust and love again.

It’s not only heartening but a downright miracle that I’m still surrounded by people I love and cherish. People who demonstrate their love through acceptance and forgiveness. Although I can only dream of redeeming myself in their eyes again, I’m lucky enough to receive the trickle of love that they bestow upon me. I’m eternally grateful for that.

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Welcome back Princess Purple Starfish. May you fare well in your quest for the elusive and enchanted daun kesum!

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